Sick of Damn Weddings

I never EVER thought I would say I was sick of weddings. All my life I've loved to go to them and the more the better. Right now I've had it! I don't want to hear about them ANYMORE! I don't want to go to any and I'm tired of worrying about finding a date.

Truth be told I am the ONLY LOSER who can't find a date to these weddings. I have two more to go to and pretty much no hope of finding an eligible bachelor. It's kind of late in the game now. I also don't want to go alone but at the same time I don't just want to bring a friend out of desperation.

Maybe it's not the truth but I feel that if I show up to that wedding alone I'm being judged. Like everyone is thinking "What's her problem that she can't find a date?" or "Isn't she old for being alone." I know that at my cousin's wedding it would be an issue as of course all my Aunts and Uncles etc will be asking "So are you seeing anyone?" or "How come you don't have a date?". Since the cousin getting married is two years younger than me.

Today I photographed a wedding for someone I didn't know. I got the job through a girl that works at the photolab with me. She referred this girl to me because she couldn't do it that day. So I'm sitting here with 14 rolls of film that I need to drop off tomorrow and I'm worried sick they won't work out. I keep praying they will. I've NEVER worried this much about wedding pictures before.

I am on WEDDING overload!!!!